Feb 2014

During assembly that day, we had a session with lights dimmed and soft music playing. We were ask to visualize a couple of things, mainly how we will feel and see when we come back next year feb 24 to get back our A levels results.

I visualize myself feeling ashamed, going to sch with an heavy heart. After getting back my results, it was all C and chemistry being U. I dare not tell anyone my results, I dare not call my parents. I eventually had to retake my A levels while all my other pals were contented and happy. I would stare up to my ceiling on my bed without knowing what to do with my life, where I will be and utterly regretful. 

After the whole visualization session, I ended up with a heavy heart. 1 more month to a levels, what have I done? Wtf is wrong with me? 

BIEBER FEVER

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LOOK WHO'S GOING TO JUSTIN BIEBER CONCERT.WOOHOOOOOOO. 

~BABY BABY BABY WOO.~

~ I KNOW YOU LOVE ME I KNOW YOU CARE. ~

Am enjoying the party now, be jealous suckers. 

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Just kidding. I'm at home being a loser looking at people's instavid on Justin bieber. Y DIDN'T I BUY F1 TICKETS URGHSHJDISNXOSBDSOBDUSNXJS. 

Life after A levels

Sup, it's September holidays Thursday and so far I have achieved nothing much. SO MUCH HOMEWORK. Went back two days for post mortem during sept holidays, results are horrible but I'm glad to say I improved (except chem which I strongly believe is invented by aliens and should not be comprehended by humans)

I honestly can't wait for A levels to end. So much so that I already planned my 8 months holiday after that. Here are some of my plans 

- Get a job (at least $8/h) , maybe admin? 

- Get a new laptop!!!!!!! 

- Go on a holiday with friends and I'm currently thinking Bali or Taiwan 

- Europe trip with mummy (if my pay allows) 

- Buy lots of clothes and go shopping 

I CAN'T WAIT. URGHHXVSBZBVSNX. 

Meanwhile, I'm so glad that I still have friends that I can count on. 

You know you've got yourself a gem (literally cos crystal = gem, gem = crystal AHAHA get it?!?!? Ok wait I'm making fun of my own name too............ ) when you have a friend sitting there just using her phone/staring into space for 2 hours just to accompany you to study. SO MUCH LOVE FOR THIS GIRL HERE XX. 

Oh & since I'm blogging, here's a pic of yesterday's lunch with the babe. Paid around $19/pax for it and so not worth it. HEN NI AH 

So glad that I have a friend who can talk with me about anything under the sun, spend hours with without feeling bored and awkward even if there's silence , be complete bimbos with taking numerous shots of our food and ourselves, be there to tell me "cheer up" when I'm feeling all down. I'm so glad I met her since p4. ♡

Till the next post, buh-bye.

Hopeless Romantic

I don't know if you guys would have the perception of me as someone who believes that my Prince Charming is gonna come and sweep me off my feets...... But I have come to realise, like wow, I am sometimes a hopeless romantic in some ways.

Definitely due to too many romantic stories on wattpad. CONFIRM PLUS GUARANTEE CHOP. I mean I don't believe in true, true love persay. But I definitely appreciate romantic gestures a lot. E.G. I enjoy watching romantic shows and even stalking couples on Instagram (LOL SHIT THIS SOUNDS CREEPY) . Maybe I'm just too lonely and having too long a window period of not having a boyfriend HAHA. But I actually find myself imagining or planning possible things I could do with my future boyfriends e.g going on sweet dates or going overseas and stuff. WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME. 

Oh fuck I'm becoming such a pathetic lonely old woman that's gonna stroke my cat like those old movies. #foreveralone #nowait #IDONTWANTTO